July 13, 2020 at 4:11 am #38640
Caeso Cispius LaevusDenarii: 𐆖 877.45PlebeiusBritannia
A slightly more personal message. But I wonder if others here share these feelings.
8 years ago I suffered a horrible car accident. I was in the hospital for three months. Then spent the better part of three years in rehabilitation before I could live in a way similar to how I was before the accident.
Before this accident I knew nothing about Rome. But during my illness I started to have an interest. I had a lot of time to read, watch documentaries and so on. The more I learned about Rome, the more I felt a sense of familiarity. This sense grew until I stopped being an atheist and started honoring the Gods. I increasingly felt like this life I was living was not my “main life”. My real life was in another time and place, probably during Roman times. This life felt more and more like a detour, a side excursion. As I got better none of these feelings really changed. I’m not upset feeling this way. It just feels like a fact. Like how the sky is blue. Nothing to be upset about.
I feel like my Roman self, is my real self. That this part of my life is my true life. That everything else is just a distraction a sideshow . As I get older this sense merely increases. Here in the Roman Republic, attending the ludi chat yesterday, it’s like being with old brothers and sisters. I feel like I’m only really my full self around other Romans. The Roman Republic is really important as a means of connecting others like us. Assuming I’m not alone in feeling this way. I hope this community recognizes what a special thing we have here and cherishes it and protects it, always.
bene vale.July 22, 2020 at 7:31 am #38873
Aula Flavia PhilippaDenarii: 𐆖 237.45PlebeiusSarmatia
You have a great idea. You should be engaged in a historical reenactment, this is the only opportunity in our time to completely immerse yourself in the Roman world. I remember the first time I spent several days with a group of sarmatian reenactors in Crimea, in a historical location where the Romans actually lived and where ancient culture existed and developed. The feeling that I am walking through the places of Roman culture, I can touch the monuments of architecture … Oh Gods, it was an unforgettable experience. It was what made me want to take up Roman culture seriously.
But I am haunted by another thought that I enjoy Roman culture being in the modern world, and that if I were born in ancient times, my attitude could depend on who I would be there, what position I would occupy…
However, the splendor and glory of ancient culture beckons me in spite of everything, and I am delighted that at least once a year, I can really immerse myself in the pax romana, and touch the Roman history in real historical places.July 27, 2020 at 8:02 am #38923
Tiberius Terentius VarroDenarii: 𐆖 763.62PlebeiusGallia Mississippia
I feel this way every day. I would say it is a core part of my world view and personality. It is like I’m a time traveler permanently stranded from home. Very well, let’s make some lemonade from those lemons! hahaha 😉July 30, 2020 at 8:03 pm #39063
Gaius Florius LupusDenarii: 𐆖 241.70PatriciusNo Province
I also feel somehow that I do not belong into this time and I can’t get used to the way things are done in our modern times.
For me it was also durig a time of major illness, when I underwent chemotherapy that I learned more about Rome, since I finally had time for it. All appeared strangely familiar to me.
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